So my oldest son Cameron is now old enough to start school this fall. I have known this was coming and still find myself in shock. We decided in the beginning that we would homeschool our kids. So for the past year, I have been slowly learning and deciding which direction I want to go as far as teaching style.
In the midst of all the decisions that need to be made, I have battled the thought of “Can I handle this?”, “What if I fail them and they never learn anything?”, “It would be easier to just put him in school and take the pressure and responsibility off.”
And so on…
How many of you have thoughts like this just about everyday on any aspect of parenting? ✋🏼 ME!
Truth is, these feelings will never go away! I could get all walking on clouds, everything is so perfect and will always work out on you but the point of this blog is to be honest right? So the truth is….our feelings are a curse and a blessing!
They are a curse because no one can ever understand how extremely hard and pressurized being a mom is and what we put ourselves through emotionally, physically and mentally!
They are a blessing because no one will ever put as much love, energy, and dedication into our children like we will! When they live with us, we worry about having to make them do what we say. When they become adults, we have to worry because we no longer can make them do anything.
So back to homeschooling….I went to a Homeschool Workshop and came out feeling a little more confused but also more empowered and excited! The biggest thing I learned was to know my why.
I have always known my why of wanting to be there and teach them, to see them grow and discover, to have the freedom to travel and take them to the physical places and not be tied down to the school schedule. Lastly, if I have learned anything about my kids over the past 6 years, it’s that they are very different in many ways and how they learn is definitely one of them!
Cameron loves learning and can sit and do book work, Conrad however needs to use his hands and be free to physically explore and move. I want them to embrace their differences and be able to learn how they are created to while being able to learn how to adapt in different environments.
All kids learn differently. It doesn’t mean they are weird or abnormal, they are unique.
I know the views on homeschooling can have variety of opinions. There is nothing wrong with having kids in a school atmosphere whether it is public or private. Learning is a gift no matter how we achieve it.
I have the capability, time, and desire. What I do want to express to you all is to be confident in what you know YOU want to do for your kids. There will always be many different opinions on what is “right”. I have already gotten multiple opinions on homeschooling but the opinions don’t bother me because I know my why!
Will it be easy? Am I still nervous? Do I still feel pressure? Do I know what I am doing?
I still have no idea what it will be like or how it will go! I also have no idea how my parenting will turn out but that doesn’t keep me from getting up and being a mom every day! So I will do the same thing as a teacher that I do as a mom…take it one day at a time, do the best I can, and always be learning as I go.
If you have ever considered homeschooling, and for whatever reason didn’t think you could handle it or do it well, you can! I have went back and forth so many times myself. I never thought I would be able to handle another baby but that wasn’t going to stop them being born in 9 months. So guess what? I just figured it out, did it, and my kids are still alive and so am I!
Things are beginning to come together and I am feeling much more excited to get started!
And as with anything in life, we are stronger together! Whether in public school or homeschooling, find a group of people to walk the journey with and keep each other strong through the challenges because either path will have them.
My mom always tells me to weigh out the pros and cons of anything that I am unsure about. So my advice…
1) Weigh Pros & Cons
2) Know the Why
3) Find people you can walk the journey with to keep each other strong and encouraged.
Will there be days when I wonder what the heck I was thinking? Absolutely! How do I know I will make it through those days? Because I know my why is stronger than my why not.
Believe me when I say that I have bad days just like anyone. In fact, I was doubting myself and my capabilities on a few things just before sitting down to write this. I still don’t know how I feel about them but I know I will bounce back and find a way.
Truth is, we are always stronger than we think we are! We are just always on the battlefield, in the fight, and sometimes can’t see past the chaos and quick decisions. Sometimes we need the help of someone looking from the outside to help us see our true potential.
A Mom Whom Understands,